That is an axiom that most of us have heard all of our lives.
But what is the spiritual lesson in this circular pattern?
Recently in our Torah study lessons we have been learning about the pre-existence of the soul. For most of my life I have rejected that notion, not believing that there is a biblical basis for thinking that all the souls of men and women were created in the beginning and are waiting somewhere in the presence of God to be incarnated in the flesh.
I admit that I was puzzled by the fact of the pre-incarnate Son, but I didn’t think that we regular humans could have had a pre-incarnate state of being.
BTW everything I, we, learn is temporary. We are always learning more, and revising or tossing out what we thought we knew!
Now I believe that our soul was pre-existent to our bodies, and goes back to the Father to wait for the resurrection when our body dies. At that point the renewed and perfect body will be reunited with our post-incarnate soul.
When a human being is conceived, God sends the soul to inhabit the body that is being “knit together” in the mother’s womb. (Another BTW: this tells us how much God values this process since he decided to present himself to the world through the womb of a woman!)
When the soul inhabits the body it leaves the all sufficient presence of the Father. Before being sent to the body, the soul has no decisions to make. There are no choices before incarnation. Every need is supplied, and there is no sin to tempt us. God is such a constant presence it could be compared to a fish in water. It doesn’t know that it’s in water. It just is.
The incarnated soul has entered the “world of concealment”. God is no longer a constant presence. The soul must now seek him. He or she will have choices to make. That is what free will is. God will not interfere with our choices. He wants us to freely choose him.
God has created the soul in such a way that it longs for reunion with God, even though it does not fully remember what it was like to be with him. We call this “the God-shaped void”. Yeshua told us that when we seek him, we will find him.
He made us so that we can communicate with him.He introduces himself to us by his Spirit.He made us so marvelously that we can hear, speak, and read.He gave us written instructions for life
Yeshua also told us: Whoever has my commandments and keeps them, he it is who loves me. And he who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I will love him and manifest myself to him.” John 14:21 ESV
While in the body, the soul will have trouble. Yeshua promised that, too.
There will be a battle between the body and the spirit the whole time it is on the earth.
There will be sickness, heartbreaks, struggles, pain, hardship and eventually death.
When the body dies, the soul leaves the body and goes either to “Paradise” as Yeshua told the thief on the cross, or somewhere else, to await the resurrection.
The soul takes nothing back with it, except what it did, and learned, during its time in the body
The questions might well be asked:
If the soul is going to make a round trip, and it will have so much trouble while it is on this trip, why should it have to go at all?
Since the soul had everything it needed before it ever incarnated a body, why did it have to do so?
What did it need that it did not already have?
The answer is simple and profound: the soul needs the body at the time of the resurrection. There will be a place in the world to come for complete humans only—souls in bodies. In order to do, and be, who God intends us to be in the world to come we must arrive there in our new bodies.
Paul wrote “So it is with the resurrection of the dead. When the body is “sown,” it decays; when it is raised, it cannot decay. When sown, it is without dignity; when raised, it will be beautiful. When sown, it is weak; when raised, it will be strong. When sown, it is an ordinary human body; when raised, it will be a body controlled by the Spirit. If there is an ordinary human body, there is also a body controlled by the Spirit.”
1 Corinthians 15:42-44 CJB
So that brings us to the picture of the roundabout. I would like to tell you a story.
My mother went through some of the most horrible trials people can go through. She lost her youngest daughter, and granddaughter, in a double-murder suicide in 1983. In 1986 she lost another daughter to pneumonia. At the same time her husband, my dad, was being tortured by mental illness via demonic oppression. Through all this, my mom, struggled to support herself and learn to live with the tragedies that had befallen her. The strain on her body took its toll. She had bouts of losing her eyesight, or hearing, or both.
In 1987 I invited her to take a vacation with me. She was living by herself in California. She flew to Seattle where I picked her up for our trip around the “Cascade Loop”.
From Puget Sound into the Cascades and back runs “Washington State’s Ultimate Road Trip”. We took several days to enjoy the scenery and each other’s company. At the end of the trip I took her to a seafood restaurant in Bellingham, not too far from where my family lived.
When we finished dinner I said to her, “Mom, I have an invitation for you. The only thing you are doing by working in the bank in California is paying for your condo and your car. You could sell the condo, pay off the car and come live with us.”
She didn’t need much time thinking over the invitation, to accept it. Within a week or so I flew to California to drive her car, and her, up to our home in Ferndale, Washington.
Mom took about two years to recover her equilibrium. Then she enrolled in Bible college. She has written all this history in the book she wrote about herself. You can find it on Amazon.
Mom lived with me most of the next 28 years. For a little while she lived in Canada as dean of women where she went to Bible School, and for a little while she lived by herself in Blaine, in Scotland to care for a sick infant, and in Hong Kong to smuggle Bibles into China. After Tim and I were married she came to live with us for the last 20 years of her life. I encourage you to read her book. What a life she led!
In 2016 her soul left her body to return to the Lord. During the dying process she was in hospice for a couple of days. When my brother and his wife arrived to see her there, Tim and I left for awhile to have dinner. The closest restaurant was closed, so when Tim asked me where I would like to go instead, I said, “Let’s go to Anthony’s it has a nice view of the water.”
As soon as we were seated at Anthony’s, I realized that we were in the exact same place Mom and I had been in when I had invited her to come live with me, 28 years in the past. The restaurant had had a different name then, but we were in the same place; it seemed that we were even at the same table.
Within an hour of our dinner at the same restaurant where Mom’s journey with me began, she was gone.
A full circle had been drawn. Like leaving a roundabout and going back the way you came, Mom had completed her round trip.
. . .the dust returns to the earth as it was, and the spirit returns to God who gave it.
O Timothy, keep that which is committed to thy trust, avoiding profane and vain babblings, and oppositions of science falsely so called: Which some professing have erred concerning the faith. Grace be with thee. Amen.
1 Timothy 6:20-21 NKJV
I have become convinced that the earth is flat, just like the Bible says it is, but I have also found that it is a major challenge when admitting that to almost anyone. The confession is met with derision, mocking, ridicule, and questions that suggest I must be crazy.
“How could you possibly believe such a thing?”
“Where is the edge?”
“What about all the pictures of the earth from space?”
“How can we circumnavigate if the world is not a globe?”
There are good answers to all those questions, and a lot more. I had to find answers to all of them.
So I have decided to write the story of how I got here.
Finding the Lies
I first gained an interest in so called “conspiracy stories” in 1999 while my husband and I prepared for the presumptive computer crashes of Y2K. As I learned about the powers behind the history of the world, I began to question everything. I learned that the sleeping public, including me, was mostly unaware of the ancient plans behind all that was happening. I learned about the Masons, the Illuminati, the bankers of the world, and that the Federal Reserve is not a government agency. I learned about the Rothschilds, the Rhodes scholars, the Tri-lateral Commission, and The Council on Foreign Relations. I learned that all of presidents, vice-presidents and even those who ran for those offices and “lost”, were all players in those organizations–with the possible exception of Ronald Reagan; he was grafted in later.
I saw that even the entertainment industry is in on the plot, and that the media are almost all owned by the same small group of plotters.
I learned that the founders of our nation were not at all what we had been taught that they were. During that year, 1999, my husband and I took his sons to Washington D.C. I told the boys that we would be watching for the signs of the Masons on the buildings, and the lay out of the streets, as I had learned would be visible. They were. Even the Washington Monument housed a Masonic “bookstore” at the top of the tower.
I realized that we have been deceived by the globalists who had set out centuries, even millennia, ago to control the world. As a Bible believer, I knew that this deception had been Satan’s plan from the beginning. I knew that the book of Revelation has informed us of this plan, and how it all ends.
Not long after this, I did a serious study on Creation vs Evolution. I knew God, a creative, intelligent agent, had been responsible for creation. But as I studied, I learned that evolution, under any sub-title, including theistic evolution, was impossible. I boiled it down to one question, “How could sexual reproduction evolve?” (see my blog: https://gracegloria.com/2019/02/21/created-or-evolved/ ) But when I asked that question of an evolutionist he said, “We don’t know, but it did.”
Why? Because the globalists are creating a world where people no longer believe the Bible, or even that God exists.
As a disciple of Yeshua, AKA Jesus, I believe that the Bible is true, and after studying Creationism vs Evolutionism, I believe in the whole Bible, including the literal six-day creation.
I have run into big trouble, and heartbreak, in trying to convey the importance of believing in the Genesis history of creation. Most of my own family, all believers, even those who work in the church and para-church organizations, disagree with me. At one family event I was told not to come back because I had argued for biblical creation with my granddaughter. There has been some reconciliation but the relationships are still tense.
I asked one of my daughters “If you do not believe Genesis, where do you draw the line? At what point do you believe what the Bible says?”
I told her, how I came to believe that if Jesus could create bread and fish ex nihilo, he could create the whole world.
She said, “Maybe he didn’t.”
About the six-day creation, she asked me, “And how could there be light if God didn’t create the sun until the fourth day?”
There’s the problem. If people don’t believe in the miracle of creation, what do they believe?
By the way, God did not need the sun to make light. He is the light. There will be no sun in the new world, the book of Revelation tells us. God the father and Yeshua his son will be the light.
And the city has no need of sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light,
and its lamp is the Lamb. Revelation 21:23
After a trip to Israel in 2015 I woke up to the lie of Replacement Theology. This is the doctrine that teaches that the “church” has replaced Israel as God’s people. This lie is so prevalent in the church that even the teachers in the church don’t know that it is there. After I came back from Israel I asked one of my pastors what he thought about replacement theology. He looked at me with his head cocked to one side.
“You know,” I said, “that the church has replaced Israel.”
“Oh,” he said, nodding, “yeah, I guess that’s right.”
He obviously did not even know what I was talking about.
He couldn’t help it. It is just what he had been taught. I had been there, too. It takes a quickening by the Holy Spirit, and a willingness to be changed, to believe something so different from what you have been taught. Mark Twain is quoted as saying, “It is much easier to deceive someone, than to convince him that he has been deceived.”
About that time I asked Tim as we left the church building on morning,
“What is this THING we do on Sunday morning, and why is it so different from what we read in the book of Acts?”
Soon after that, we left the church.
We started studying the Hebrew foundation of Christianity. One of the first things we learned was that word that is translated “church” in our Bibles is, in Greek, “Ecclesia”. It means “the called out ones” or an assembly of the called out ones. The word never meant a building, denomination, or “Christian” congregation.
We learned that Judaism and Christianity were never intended to be separate “religions”. Jesus was a Torah-observant Jew until he died, and he will still be a Jew when he comes back. Paul did not get converted, become a “Christian” and have his name changed by Jesus. He too, was a Torah-observant Jew until he was killed. He was even a Pharisee! And believe it or not, so was Jesus. Jesus would not have been invited to a Pharisee’s home for a meal unless he was one of them. He taught them in the way Jews have always taught each other, with discussion and argumentation. It is the way of the rabbis.
Fast forward to 2020. The “pandemic” hit. President Trump took us to “warp speed” to bring out a vaccine that would save us.
Here is my short history on President Trump
When I first heard he was running for president my reaction was, “You have got to be kidding?”
I didn’t know a whole lot about him. I had heard he was a successful businessman worth a lot of money, that he was a womanizer, that he owned lots of properties and that he had had a television show.
When I learned that he was pro-life and pro-Israel, I got on board with him.
Then he lost me. With Fauci standing alongside and talking “warp speed”, I realized that Trump is part of the play. He was brought out on stage to appease us conservatives, for a while.
More lies were being foisted on us during the covid crisis. The whole world was being deceived. How could that be? How could the “whole world” be deceived. It makes sense when you remember that Satan is the god of this world. Satan is a liar.
“And the great dragon was thrown down, that ancient serpent, who is called the devil and Satan, the deceiver of the whole world—he was thrown down to the earth, and his angels were thrown down with him.”
For some reason, probably a Holy Spirit prompt, I looked into the controversy about the moon landing. It never happened. Impossible. Look it up. Think. Here are a couple of things to think about.
How was it possible for manned spacecraft to go there between 1969 and 1972 and have yet they never went back? NASA says they lost all the information from those missions and they can’t re-learn it.
Now NASA is telling us there is radiation called “The Van Allen Belts” that surround the earth and it is not safe to go through them, even for equipment. One of the NASA officials is recorded as saying they hope to figure it out how to get through those radiation belts soon so that missions to the moon and beyond can be planned and executed. So how did the Apollo spacecraft and crew make it through this radiation to get to the moon in 1969 and the early 70’s?
Is the earth flat?
In 2022 I had a hunch to try to figure out why some people could believe that the earth is flat. It seemed impossible to me that anyone could think so. At that time I didn’t dig deep enough to find the truth, I simply wrote the idea off as ridiculous.
Then in 2023, in a Bible study group, we discussed the shape of the tabernacle that Moses was instructed by God to build. One of the ladies showed us a book written by Andrew Hoy entitled “The House of El Shaddai”. In showing us some pictures of the dome-shaped tent Andrew Hoy has promoted, there was also a picture of the flat earth with a dome over it.
“What does the tabernacle have to do with the idea of flat earth?” I asked.
The lady who introduced the book by Andrew Hoy gave me a steady look with a very slight smile that seemed to say, “Hang on, Girl, you are going for a ride.”
Intrigued, I began to look in earnest at the idea that the world is flat.
Incidentally, if the tabernacle was a copy of what Moses had seen in heaven, and it was built to be the place where God would dwell with us, could it also be a model of the domed earth where God will dwell with us for all eternity in the world to come?
I started looking for answers to the questions.
Questions and Answers
My first question was, “How could anyone circumnavigate the world if it was flat?”
Duh. Look at a flat earth map.
Start anywhere, travel around the world and come back to where you started. The center of the map, and the flat earth, is what we call the North Pole. Circumnavigation is not an issue on a circle.
2. Where is the edge?
The edge of the circle is Antarctica. The ice wall of Antarctica holds the oceans in place and is the edge. No one is allowed access to the continent of Antarctica since a treaty was made in 1959 by 15+ nations, prohibiting private people from exploring it. Why? Good question. Look it up. You will read about Admiral Byrd, the Treaty including the prohibition of traveling south of the 60th parallel by private people, Operation Fishbowl, and Operation Dominic.
3. What about the curvature of the earth?
Read about the supposed curvature of the earth. And look for yourself. It isn’t there. The earth is flat for miles and miles and miles. You only lose sight of something in the distance because of perspective and atmospheric conditions. You will learn that the supposed curvature of the earth is eight inches times the number of miles squared you are viewing.
If the circumference of the globe at the equator is 24,901 miles, as we are told, using the Pythagorean theorem, you can calculate the supposed curvature of the earth https://earthcurvature.com/ This will give you an expected amount of curvature between any two distances. The equation is eight inches per mile squared.
100 miles would be over 6666 feet, or over a mile of curvature, putting everything but the tallest mountains out of sight. That is not what we can see. From where I live in Sequim, Washington the Mount Baker Ski Area is 87 miles away. Using the above formula, Mt Baker should be 5046 feet over the curve of the earth. It’s not. We can see the whole mountain from here, from the beach which is sea level obviously, including the foothills.
The global earth model is part of the heliocentric (sun centered universe) theory. The problem with the heliocentric theory is there’s no curvature to be found. ANYWHERE.
4. Does the earth orbit the sun?
The earth is not orbiting the sun.
Biblical hint: If, as the book of Revelation says, there is no night in the world to come, the earth is not spinning, or orbiting the sun.
5. If the earth were a globe, how does the water stay on it?
It could not. Even so called “gravity” could not hold water onto a sphere. Water is always flat, everywhere.
6. What about the pictures of the earth from space?
There are none. The images we have of the global earth as just that, images—computer generated images or CGI, even NASA admits that.
7. Who or what is NASA?
The National Aeronautics and Space Administration, NASA, was formed after WWII. It was established with Nazi scientists who were brought to the United States in a “secret” program called Operation Paper Clip.
8. Is space travel outside of our atmosphere even possible?
No. See this word from Caspian Sarginson’s book:
“If the earth were rotating at 1,037 mph, and at the same time the earth was revolving around the sun at 66,600 mph, while the sun was revolving around the center of our galaxy at 514,500 mph, and simultaneously our galaxy was traveling at 1.34 million mph through space,* any space ship that left the earth’s atmosphere into outer space would be instantly left behind, and it could never catch up to the earth to return. First, it would be impossible to calculate a space flight from a point of origination in outer space to the earth while it is rotating, revolving, orbiting with the sun around the center of the galaxy, and while the entire galaxy is moving. Second, no space ship could travel fast enough to catch up to earth again. Sarginson, Caspian. Flat Earth: A Biblical and Scientific Approach: How Important is Truth to You? (pp. 48-49). Sarginson Publishing. Kindle Edition.
*BTW how could anyone ever measure those speeds? Wikipedia speed calculation formula:
Find the distance the object has traveled.
Find the time it took the object to travel that distance.
Divide the distance by the time.
All you need are those two pieces of information.
How can you get that information?
I began to experience “cognitive dissonance”.
“In psychology, cognitive dissonance is the mental discomfort experienced by a person who simultaneously holds two or more contradictory beliefs, ideas, or values” Quoted from psychologytoday.com
The only place I could find to resolve the problem, and find truth, is in the word of God.
What does the Bible say about the shape of the earth?
The earth is flat. God says so. There are hundreds of verses that explain, or refer to the shape of the earth.
Other subjects/verses to consider: There are lots of places to read about these things.
How could the whole world see Yeshua when he returns if the world were a globe?
Light was made on the first day; the sun on the fourth, so the earth was not orbiting the sun
No one knows what “gravity” is. Gravity is a theory. Things fall because of relative density.
The moon has its own light, and it is cool light. You can measure it.
Flight paths prove flat earth.
Tsunamis prove flat earth.
Look up Blue Marble CGI (computer generated image)
Ask an engineer if he has to consider the curvature of the earth when planning a tunnel or a railroad—I did. His answer “We never have to consider the supposed curvature of the earth.”
Look at the sky when both the moon and the sun are visible and figure out how the earth could be casting a shadow in the moon.
Most importantly ask the Holy Spirit to reveal the truth to you. Then decide if you are going to believe the literal words of the Bible, or how some people try to amalgamate the Word with the “world” .
All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness,
2 Timothy 3:16
Excerpts from a couple of the books I read:
How Ought Christians to Handle Flat Earth? By Caspian Sarginson
“As a preliminary thought, this is no longer a subject that Christians can avoid, hoping the entire subject will go away so you won’t have to deal with it.
“The subject of flat earth has become a very hot topic, and among many believers and unbelievers the phrase “flat earth” is an emotional trigger that sets some people off. This subject is full of more deception, more misrepresentations, and more slander than any other subject of our day.
“It must also be emphasized that God’s creation story is very important to God as is made clear in the scriptures. Therefore, it ought to be important to us, and at a minimum, we as Christian’s need to know what the true Bible version of creation really is. What Does The Bible Say?”
Scientism Exposed: Hiding the True Creator of Creation, Davidson, Robbie, Kindle Edition
“In the world we live in today, Scientism comes easily, almost naturally, to many of us. If a concept or idea has been proven by science, we immediately take it to be true, even when we neither conducted the experiments ourselves nor analyzed the data obtained from these experiments. In our minds, because science says something has been discovered, it must be true. The Force behind Scientism (and Its Agenda), with all its masquerading as a champion of truth and knowledge, is not so benign. What lies beneath the shiny veneer of research and experiments is the existence of a clear anti-God agenda. This agenda is clear enough to be seen by anybody who looks close enough. It has become clear to me that there is a lot of stuff masquerading as science and there’s a force behind that. This can only be a manifestation of man’s perpetual adversary; whose primary mission is to tell lies about everything and keep people from the truth of God.
“Staunch believers of the Word of God do not discredit science. In fact, they see science as a great thing, if its limitations are acknowledged. They also worry about the spiritual nature of Scientism, since it is a belief system, a religion, and one which has set out to destroy the credibility of the Word of God. Destruction of this credibility leads to the destruction of the credibility of God in people’s minds and makes them doubt the existence of a creator. This sinister agenda is not a new endeavor. Attempts at discrediting God have been in effect from the early moments of history, as far back as the events of Genesis, Chapter 3, when the Deceiver, Satan, tried to plant doubts in the mind of Adam and Eve, and, unfortunately, he succeeded.” Davidson, Robbie; Davidson, Robbie. Scientism Exposed: Hiding the True Creator of Creation (pp. 10-11). Kindle Edition.
“We know they have been lying to us for hundreds of years about the millions and billions of years of ancient history. They’ve been lying to us about the evolution of species and how we supposedly evolved from speechless monkeys.” Ibid. (p. 83). Kindle Edition.
“So deeply rooted the globe has become in our minds that most people laugh when presented with an alternative. . Isn’t this so convenient for those who want to conceal the truth from the rest of the world? To convince the masses to laugh at someone who wants to unveil the truth, instead of opening their eyes and listening?” Ibid. (p. 104).
“If a sufficient number of people have been convinced that the earth is not flat, and a majority agreeing with the round paradigm has been established, the rest of their mission is nothing but a piece of cake. We’re inherently afraid of being rejected, therefore, we’ll keep our mouths shut in front of the charade. People might not choose sides but choosing to stay neutral in this matter is harming to the truth, because the number of those brave enough to expose the lie is limited, therefore, their impact is also limited. You might feel the earth is flat, because that’s what you’re seeing and that’s how you experience life, on a flat level, but where’s the courage to admit it in front of everyone else?
It really does not matter what other people say if you know the truth. Your life will not be influenced in any way if people do not agree with your view.” Ibid. (p. 114). Kindle Edition.
“The Bible should always be your final source in your endeavor to find the truth.” Ibid. (p. 149). Kindle Edition.
I took screen shots of these pictures from the 1958 Encyclopedia Americana
After I saw them, I tried to find a copy of the 1958 Encyclopedia Americana where this article appears. I could not find a copy anywhere. There were editions before and after 1958 on Amazon, eBay and Powell’s Books, but that particular year was not available anywhere I could find.
If you begin searching for information that will support Biblical Cosmology, you will discover this problem nearly everywhere you look. It will also be noticed that when you do find videos or articles that support Biblical Cosmology, there will be a notice on it that says: Fla
“Flat Earth is an archaic and scientifically disproven conception of the Earth’s shape as a plane or disk. Many ancient cultures subscribed to a flat-Earth cosmography.”
This explanation is also attached to what you will see:
“When you search or watch videos related to topics prone to misinformation, such as the moon landing, you may see an information panel at the top of your search results or under a video you’re watching. “Information panels show basic background info, sourced from independent, third-party partners, to give more context on a topic. . .”
So why do the “third party partners” feel the need to censor what we read, or try to re-interpret it for us? Do they not trust us to make good learning choices on our own?
So Who’s Lying?
We learned during the covid pandemic that the information that the public so desperately needed was being hidden by the main line news and social media platforms. We learned that we can’t trust anything we read or view, anything. Censorship went viral, and wild. Who are the ones most likely to be telling the truth, the censored or the censurers? It is fairly easy to ascertain who has more to gain, the censurers. The globalists have an agenda to control the whole world. That control begins with the information that they give or withhold. Go back to evolution vs creationism to see the agenda. They want faith in God and the Bible to be wiped off the face of the earth. Bibles are not allowed in schools anymore. The ten commandments are being taken down from public places, and the world is suffering.
Fortunately there is still a remnant that believes what God says.
The Bible, any translation
Terra Firma: The Earth Not a Planet, Proved From Scripture, Reason, and Fact. David Warlaw Scott. 1901. Copyright 2013 Read Books Ltd.
Zetetic Astronomy—Earth Not a Globe. An Experimental Inquiry into the True Figure of the Earth: Proving it a Plane, without Axial or Orbital Motion: and the Oly Material World in the Universe! By “Parallax” Rowbotham. 1865. Copyright 2017 Martino Fine Books
Graven Image—Why the Earth is Not a Globe. Vincent Rhodes. Made in the USA. Coppell, TX 2023
One Hundred Proofs That the Earth is Not a Globe. W.M. Carpenter. 1885. Copyright 2017 Nouveau Classics.
When my marriage of 29 years ended in divorce, all I could think to do was plant flowers. I planted a hedge of red roses next to road in front of the house.
I watched those roses through the year. During the summer the roses were beautiful, and bright red. They bloomed all through the fall. By December, though, the flowers had gone; the stems were dry and bare. In February I pruned the stems and waited for Spring to bring new growth. By June, the roses bloomed again.
As I looked at them, I thought, “Wow. Look at that. How did those dry sticks manage to suck up something from the ground and create those magnificent roses?” I knew that God did that, and I knew that what the roses had sucked up out of the earth was horse manure, because I put it there!
Isn’t that just the way of the Lord? He takes the crap of our lives, and grows roses in it.
When my granddaughter, Hannah, was two years old, my daughter was reading a childrens’ book to her about the attributes of God. They got to the part about forgiveness.
Hannah asked, “What does that mean?”
Jasona tried to explain the concept to her.
Hannah asked, “Is that like God puts you in time out?”
“It’s more like God calls you out of time out,” Jasona said, as she turned the page of the book.
Hannah flipped the page back. “How does he do that?” she asked.
Jasona turned the page and said, “You pray to him and ask him to forgive you.”
Hannah flipped it back.
Jasona realized something was up, she asked, “Do you want to ask God to forgive you, Hannah?”
“Do you want to pray or would you like me to pray for you?”
Hannah pointed at her mom.
Jasona prayed, asking the Lord to forgive any sins that Hannah had committed.
She turned the page again.
That was not good enough for Hannah. She flipped the page back.
“Do you want to pray yourself, Hannah?” Jasona asked.
Hannah nodded, closed her eyes, bowed her head and started to talk to God.
Jasona realized that Hannah was talking about the toothpaste tube. A couple of days before Hannah had gotten into trouble for squeezing all the toothpaste out of the toothpaste tube.
The remarkable thing about this story, for me, is that Hannah, at age two, had realized that something she had done, had defiled her. She felt the conviction. She found the relief in the grace of the Lord.
My mother had lots of life lessons she passed on to me.
One of them was this: “If you squeeze the toothpaste tube, toothpaste comes out.”
This is true, but what is in the tube may be unknown to us, hidden deep in the heart.
What she was saying is, “Whatever is in you will come out under pressure.”
For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false witness, slander.
One day my daughter reprimanded Hannah, for something she had done to her younger sister, Audrey.
Later Audrey came to the kitchen and asked Jasona if she had ever done something mean to her younger sister.
Jasona answer that yes, she had.
“What did you do?” Audrey asked.
Jasona told her something she had done to Heather.
Audrey responded, “What were you thinking?”
Jasona said, “I don’t know, Audrey. I don’t know what I was thinking.”
After a few seconds, Audrey looked at her mother and said, “You were listening to the sin in your heart”
“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins,
and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.” 1 John 1:9